I <3 Spring!

My personal cirriculum is that I wrote a lot of good and meaningful posts. So I think my writing has definately improved. So my posts are meaningful I have lots of things that people could further on think and talki about. I like using technology to write things because it is a way more faster and neater way so yeah. The posts are the ones that would have life and with a point in the category. You can tell that they will be good.

Friends are turning into mean people. They are turning into other more popular friends. Like those girls from the movie mean girls (the plastics.) It’s very confusing. At one point they can be your best friends at the next they are trying to have drugs and start drinking. They want to be cool. Well she stands up and ignores them. She is just a witness one friend comes and goes. She can’t do anything about it. She is a very pretty smart girl. She is not a nerd but she is not a prep either. She very serious (at times) but usually she is just totally relaxed. She looks like she is at peace like nothing around her matters. Maybe, she doesn’t care (no, she cares) maybe she doesn’t want to (yeah maybe.) But her face is so serene you will never know what she will say. She is not an outsider. She has a lot of these “friends”, But what it is about her the thing that you are trying to find out is why she won’t do anything, try to change them something, right? She was born on March 26th. She goes to a middle school. She had a friend. A real friend. They loved each other did everything with each other. But one day when she came to school after being sick for awhile. She noticed her friend had already made a new friend. And slowly that girl became just like her. She was very sad because now her friends were bratty preps. She tried to do something but soon… Someting happened… They were at a party, she and her friend. People were drinking including her friend. They were doing having inapropriate things with guys upstairs. The girl was confused. She tried to do something. But her friend was drunk. And he friend was mad. Her friend and all the other people sart pnching and kicking her. The blood was coming out of her mouth and nose. They were slapping her, until finally they picked her up and threw her into the pool. The girl was so weak and so sad, that she decided that she should not try to get out of the water. Drown just drown. Was all she was thinking.

I have not written anything for a while so here goes.

The other day I asked my friends a simple question food or boys, (since in the modern world all girls get introduced to the boy-girl concept at young age.) For me it was straight on food, definately food. I am a food eater. One girl said boys but the rest said food. What would you say? Living our life not worrying about anything and she just living with food as much as we want (boys aren’t needed for maing more people) just imagine. Or, there is having a life full of boys (but never having to be hungry, weight paralyzed or anything.) So what would you pick (this is a question mainly and hopefully for girls.)

Lots of girls tell me that it’s better to hang out with guys then girl’s. I have to say it’s true. There is less drama. And less drama means more fun. Like instead of calling people saying that the rumor wasn’t true. You are out with your friends doing fun stuff. So basically the point is it’s ok to hang out with guys. So why are people so afraid of doing that. Especially girls, that are shy. So peopole should relax.

Everybody always wants to grow up to fast. Get into your teenage years and going to tons of parties and all. But the thing is just like in the book “The Outsiders” Gold is the childhood. The gold is the childhood that you want to keep forever. When we are children we want to grow up. When we are adults we want to be young again. It makes no sense. Which one is better? Being young or old. So why don’t we just enjoy both? Because of expectations we always want something more. Like we have clothes well we want more. It doesn’t make any sense. Why can’t we just live with what we have. I am not saying that i can do it, no. I want more to. But why can’t we just eliminate those expectations. So why can’t we do that? Greed, jelousy, anger and all these other things. Eliminate that and that would be something amazing. Something meaning so much than a bunch of clothes. I am not saying I hate shopping. I love shopping I am probably the Shopping Freak. I love it. But now that I think about, maybe I could survive.

My brother and I fight a lot (like any other siblings.) His name is Alex, he is sixteen. We always have each others back though. When we are hangin’ with friends we are obviously like whatever about each other. But whenever we need to keep something as a secret we always tell each other. Like once these girls after school wrote all over his car. My dad does not allow that. And so i kep it a secret. And report cards we always tell each other if we were going to be in trouble. But the other part of Alex and I is that we can’t stand each other. We absolutely can’t, always picking on each other or pushing or chasing. But every once in a while sometimes we will get along and help each other.
Love,

A certain someone once told me that when something is going with your life, something that would be to hard to talk about with other people, should be expressed in writing. So therefore I am taking his advice. A reputation is something that is very hard to change. Once it’s there it’s there. And to be able to change it would take a lot of hard work… So for example, if your reputation was heard to be, voilent, mean and all of these other things. If you want to change it you would have to forget about all those things. Change your life. Start over. So once I kind of snapped at this girl. I asked my friend to apoligize to her for me. And so that girl said, “Please… That girl doesn’t know what the word sorry means.” I was angry and confused. How did this mean reputation come up all of a sudden? You tell me. I am so confused now. I have so many friends that in order to keep up with them, I have to make sure to please all of them. And if I accidently screw up on something its gone. That is it. So how am I supposed to keep all my friends happy. No one is perfect. I have my friends who don’t like my other friends and friends who don’t know who my other friends are. It’s just hard to know that people depend on you. So if you screw it up then your friendship life just comes to halt. So then you have this deppressing part of your life, and then sometime later you figure out you don’t necessarily need them. Only if they were really close to you or something. So this is my story…